To work or not to work, that is the question

I am at that point, you know where most moms have to make a decision, to work or not to work. Some women have no choice, they have to work and I feel totally blessed that I haven't had to work and don't really have to now. I have been at SAHM (stay at home mom) since Liam was first born and my heart has always told me that is where I belong. Nothing has really changed in my heart, I love being at home and being a mama to my awesome kiddos! But, somehow God has planted a seed in me to want to do more than just stay home. It is bittersweet to me.

There has been an opportunity put before me to teach in a really great environment, awesome people, and a fun atmostphere. I would be teaching full time 8-3:15 5 days a week, have benefits, and pretty good pay. Liam would go to school there 3 days a week and Makenna would go 2 days a week. We have got it worked out so that we wouldn't have to have someone else watching our children all the time. Everything sounds really great but, I just don't know if I want to be away from my kids that much! It makes me nervous to think about it. I know every mom goes through this when they start a new job and I realize it will be a really hard first month. Lots of tears will be shed. Not because I don't like the job, but because of the time I am missing with Liam and Makenna.

This position would be a really thing for me. Added income, benefits, a little more self identity, and being a part of a school that other schools with compare themselves to. With all this, I still can't help but think to myself.....am I making the right decision?

I am amazed....

So, this post is to all you parents out there who have more than 2 children. My two little ones are 4 and 21 months old and while I have always thought of myself as a patient person, sometimes when it comes to my kiddos, I am not as patient as I should be. I feel like pulling out my hair and yelling when things get crazy! Like when Kenna is yelling "Mommy" 8-10 times in a row and Liam is making incredibly loud noises all within the confining feet of a minivan and while I am trying to have a conversation with my husband. I know this is probably "small" to some of you and maybe you can ignore those things......but I have a hard time doing so. OK, when I was growing up, I always thought I wanted 3 or 4 children......what in the world was I thinking?!?!?! For me, two is enough!! So, my heart goes out to you who have more than 2 children. I give you a round of applause and you should pat yourself on the back for making it through the day/week/year in one piece. Raising children isn't easy and often times it is overlooked as hard work! "Good Kids" are good just by chance. You have parents that work very hard to give them the best chance in life they have. If you kids are happy and healthy, then you have done your job! Congratulations to you!! This is a shout out to you!!